Blessed be the Lord God, the God of Israel, who alone works wonders. And blessed be His glorious name forever; and may the whole earth be filled with His glory. Amen and Amen. – Psalm 72:18-19 For his invisible attributes, namely, his eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly perceived, ever since the creation of the world, in the things that have been made. So they are without excuse. Romans 1:20 For the Lord your God is God of gods and Lord of lords, the great, the mighty, and the awesome God, who is not partial and takes no bribe. Deuteronomy 10:17 It was just but another day so i thought. It wasn't. Coming to work with the customary light mode, i ended up making a decisional lapses not to control everything which I am obliged to as a worker. I didn't control what needed to be checked. It was as if it was programmed to happen as nobody from my colleagues has given me a clue to do otherwise. I did what i thought was right that day and the following day, I was greeted with the realization of my failure. The first feeling I got was guilt. My guilt is associated with my irresponsible act of not doing control job. Second, because i could not reverse my mistake in any way. It happened and I have to have humility to own my failure. I didn't get any sermon but just some cold and awkward treatment. In my mind that time, I know that I have done something which would be attached to my name for some period of time. It is something that is going to touch my ego. When people will talk about me, I care less because I know I am not guilty. This time they will talk and I am guilty. It is irritating to me when I know people could possibly be talking about me behind my back. It would matter to me how they talk on my regards because I have a problem with my ego. Rather than doing things for my only sole audience, my Lord Jesus Christ, my heart tends to desire people's approval anyway. When Jesus said in Matthew 16: 24 Then Jesus told his disciples, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me.", i know it is hard for me to when not impossible to deny myself. But i have to because i want to be my Lord and my Savior's disciple. So i prayed,"Lord, please grant me grace to be able to deny myself, to carry my cross and to follow you. For me this mistake is all in all together working for my good. Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. The Lord has been forming me day by day. I have learned through this event in my life that I serve a loving and a faithful God. The very fact that my sins are taken away from me as far as the east is from the west is such a comfort to me. For though i may still stumble, God's grace is sufficient. His strength is made known in my weaknesses. 2 Corinthians 12:8-10 8 Concerning this thing I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might depart from me. 9 And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong. |
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